It's over

It's done, finished, the end, never going to be the same again. In my last post I talked about the friend of mine that had changed and we had a fight and the whole situation surrounding it. Well that little tiny flame of hope that everything was going to be fixed and we could go back to being chums like we've always been has been officially snuffed out by one simple text. My other friend had already said her goodbye to him, but I still held some hope that he would come back. Like I said I am stubborn and I dislike giving up, especially on people that I care about. So I finally asked the question of whether our friendship was really going to end like this. His response was longer than a simple yes, but to summarize his answer: Yes I am going to let our friendship end this way.

At that point it thoroughly hit me that it's over, he's never coming back. This pain is similar to loosing someone to the grips of death, yet is different in the fact that I don't fully understand. Why he would give up on something like this so easily? There is also the fact that I know right now he is down in the cities doing his own thing and I fear that the pain I feel, he does not.

As before the saying "the world goes round" pops into my head and I realize I need to move on from this, which sadly is both hard, but easier than it should be; though I still am unable to read his final text again yet.

I guess at this point I just need to say my goodbyes and let go.