Need to Restart

I need to restart doing things I love to do. I am becoming a lazy bum who works too much. My life has become ruled by a computer. I sit about 8 hours in my office, working. Answering emails, writing reports, writing up schedules and plans for activities and another day camp. Day Camp, that sounds like fun right? Well the day of it is, I actually get to get out of this darned four walled, paper filled cage, and do something outside. But until then I am pretty stuck inside. This has turned me into a pretty lazy person I have discovered. You know they say a body in motion stays in motion, well it seems that works the other way too, a body not in motion, continues to not move. My job may not be physically demanding or draining, but mentally I am usually wiped at the end of the day. And so by the time I get home I just want to lunge around, and at night usually get back on that cursed computer to talk to friends.

For the past year this has become my life, luckily this job is a one year thing and I shall be going back to school this fall. But stagnancy does not work for me, I can not do basically the same thing everyday, I need change, I need variety! A routine is fine yes, but even in that there is usually some small thing that is different everyday. I need to get my butt up and start doing things I love again. I took a Yoga class in school for a gym credit, that was amazing, but I haven't done any since school got it. There is one thing I need to start doing again. Rollerblading I haven't done that in years, need to do that. Crocheting, I have a blanket I started a year and a half ago, it hasn't gotten any farther since then. Drawing, I used to draw lots, now I never do, time and laziness has stopped me.

I am just simply tired, worn out, and ready for change, ready for people my age and at a similar maturity level. I've discovered with this job, that I will never be a teacher when I am older, I just can't handle the lack of maturity of kids sometimes on a daily basis. Through this entire year, I have not met one new person that was my age, all were younger or older.

So what is on my list of to-dos? Change things need to change above all. Rollerblades, luckily my birthday is coming up so I can get some as a present, finish that cursed blanket, start doing yoga again, and start drawing again.

Luckily this long-needed change has already begun on its own. Reading was something I lost the time to do with my first year of college and then this full-time job, but I've slowly managed to work that aspect back into my life and I am so glad I have. Roleplaying has always been a bit of passion for me. I had the worst case of writers block for almost a month. There was an amazing rp that I was in that died, and inspiration disappeared, I think because I was still in the mode to continue that rp. But now I've found a new one that shall be interesting and is difference, but it shall also present me with a challenge. The literacy level is a bit higher than I usually take part in and I hope I will be able to overcome this challenge and it will just make my writing better.

Summer has also finally come, our world has been shrouded in clouds recently, first the long season of winter, and then all this cool weather and rain this spring, we finally have a day where the sun is partially peaking out and my mood has increased greatly.

So things are slowly changing, thankfully, but I still want it to come sooner. And I just am excited to get back to being me. I am a student at heart, school is something I've always liked, and taking this year off has fully shown me that truth, and these next two months of this job seem like it is such a long time, but at the same so little. And though I am ready to move on there are still things I need to accomplish before this job has finished.