Well the past few weeks have been pretty dull around here; I don't know if it is due to the grey clouds and not so pleasant weather as of late or what, but my life has pretty much been nothing but work, school, and homework. Sounds pretty invigorating don't it XP. It has also been a classic Monday so far too, nothing important or urgent needs to get done, nothing surprising or amazing has happened, it has just simply been Monday.
I can't say I can complain, nothing horrible has happened, but things have been rather boring and well when nothing is happening and the only good thing is that nothing horrible has happened, that also means that nothing really good is happening. Though I suppose I can't rule out 2 things that have happened that are pretty awesome, they have provided a bit of excitement in these past grey winter days. First I get to go to Florida this spring to go see my aunt and uncle so that will be awesome and I can't wait to get a nice early tan from that trip. Secondly my friend got a 3 month old pug over the weekend and he is pretty dang cute. Despite all the snorting noises he makes, and the fact that pugs were deliberately bred to be incapable of surviving without humans XD.
It is also getting to that point in winter where I am restless and tired of the same everyday routine, I wanna either go do something exciting and fun or stay home and do nothing. I am probably making winter sound like the worst season in the world, which it isn't, it's awesome for the first month or so; but once you reach the second half it turns more to ice and you start getting pretty tired of skating around the roads in your car. I'd say the roads are the worst part of winter, this winter especially, all back roads have been nothing but ice, which makes driving so stressful and annoying. I am so ready for nice clear roads where I don't have to worry about sliding into the middle of traffic or sliding into another car or ditch as I make a turn to get to work. Monotone weather just messes everything up, especially when there's ice involved.
Well this is my little rant for now I think, it has been a while since I last posted, but like I said there really has not been a lot to report about lately.
So see you next rambling :D
Monday, January 31, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Ramble
So life is going well I'd say for now. School has started again, so my level of busy-ness has risen a bit. Only have two classes, but with a full-time job, where you work late makes it hard to find time for homework without staying up at all hours of the night. But the classes are interesting so that helps.
My online addiction is finally back up, it is called Wolf-Haven, it got hacked about a month ago so it has been down since then until this past weekend. Basically what you do is you have a wolf character and you work to level your character on a map where you hunt and you get xp for having a successful hunt. You can also join packs and find a mate, which if you do they help in attacks. It's really a fun game and well made. So my boredom is filled with leveling on that site, so when it disappeared I didn't know what to do with myself XD.
Not a lot is going on in my life or really has happened, so not totally sure how long this post is going to be...But from my last post I told you about my friend situation and all communication has pretty much been severed with him, I talked to him a little bit after that fateful text mainly to try and understand everything, (it annoys me when I don't), and after that things have been left to silence.
This week my energy level has officially plummeted, I am getting enough week, but my low back has decided to hate me so that makes things difficult. But this is really all i have for now so see ya next post :D
Click to Check out Wolf-Haven
My online addiction is finally back up, it is called Wolf-Haven, it got hacked about a month ago so it has been down since then until this past weekend. Basically what you do is you have a wolf character and you work to level your character on a map where you hunt and you get xp for having a successful hunt. You can also join packs and find a mate, which if you do they help in attacks. It's really a fun game and well made. So my boredom is filled with leveling on that site, so when it disappeared I didn't know what to do with myself XD.
Not a lot is going on in my life or really has happened, so not totally sure how long this post is going to be...But from my last post I told you about my friend situation and all communication has pretty much been severed with him, I talked to him a little bit after that fateful text mainly to try and understand everything, (it annoys me when I don't), and after that things have been left to silence.
This week my energy level has officially plummeted, I am getting enough week, but my low back has decided to hate me so that makes things difficult. But this is really all i have for now so see ya next post :D
Click to Check out Wolf-Haven
Monday, January 10, 2011
It's over
It's done, finished, the end, never going to be the same again. In my last post I talked about the friend of mine that had changed and we had a fight and the whole situation surrounding it. Well that little tiny flame of hope that everything was going to be fixed and we could go back to being chums like we've always been has been officially snuffed out by one simple text. My other friend had already said her goodbye to him, but I still held some hope that he would come back. Like I said I am stubborn and I dislike giving up, especially on people that I care about. So I finally asked the question of whether our friendship was really going to end like this. His response was longer than a simple yes, but to summarize his answer: Yes I am going to let our friendship end this way.
At that point it thoroughly hit me that it's over, he's never coming back. This pain is similar to loosing someone to the grips of death, yet is different in the fact that I don't fully understand. Why he would give up on something like this so easily? There is also the fact that I know right now he is down in the cities doing his own thing and I fear that the pain I feel, he does not.
As before the saying "the world goes round" pops into my head and I realize I need to move on from this, which sadly is both hard, but easier than it should be; though I still am unable to read his final text again yet.
I guess at this point I just need to say my goodbyes and let go.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Where does it go?
It has been a while since I posted anything on here, but i suppose that happens when your busy and a cold puts you down for the count for about a week; damn cold season. But besides that Christmas was good, got to hang with family, received more than enough presents and one of my cousins got engaged so that is exciting.
Life though has somewhat of a different plan I suppose, everything was fairly good and then a friend that moved to the cities about a year ago, proved how much a person can change in a year and not for the good. He used to be our best friend, (we have a little gang of friends and we are all very close), and when he first moved down he still stayed in contact every so often even if he was just on messenger for an hour or so. But as time progressed his absence became bigger and his reliability of coming up to visit dwindled. Even when he was up here his presence was almost none existent, we'd hang, but he was always texting someone from the cities or talking about some game that he played with other friends now. Well things grew and he became busy and his presence disappeared. It became blatantly obvious something was up and he realized sent an explanation of how busy he was why he wasn't always able to come when he said he could and I gave him the understanding he needed, cause as we all know shit happens. He asked how he could make things better with us and he seemed like he really wanted to. And the simplest thing he needed to do was to simply work on his communication and talk to us. Which simply could have been getting on messenger even for just an hour once a week would make a difference. But this simple task apparently has proven to be too hard for him.
He came up for us to meet his new boyfriend and things blew up from there, what he promised to be almost a whole day of hanging with him was turning into an hour at a coffee shop, which than got pushed to nothing, because of some stupid excuse that came up. We had finally had enough and the fight took place. We explained what we were upset with, and he still didn't seem to understand. He has yet to talk to us after that and that fact right there proves how much he has changed, if this happened even 6 months ago, he would have showed up at our friends house where we were hanging out to talk to us and explain what was wrong or at least have texted us or called us to talk about it by now. You never realize how much a person can change until they do and the sad part is I am not even that upset at loosing him, a part of me is still hoping he will show up and talk about it, and another part realizes that the person that was my friend disappeared a while ago and it is only the vessel that held that person that I am loosing.
This happened about a week ago and has been followed by my bank account dwindling from 150 bucks to 15 due to one book I needed for school and my laptop battery has officially died which means i need to spend 150 bucks to replace it. The only silver lining currently is the fact that everything else is going good, this fight has brought the rest of us closer, i get to get a better battery, and i appreciate it that this happens all at once, instead of being dragged out for months on end.
So this is what has happened in my life most recently, there really is not a whole lot left to say, so Guten Tag and I'll post whenever.
Life though has somewhat of a different plan I suppose, everything was fairly good and then a friend that moved to the cities about a year ago, proved how much a person can change in a year and not for the good. He used to be our best friend, (we have a little gang of friends and we are all very close), and when he first moved down he still stayed in contact every so often even if he was just on messenger for an hour or so. But as time progressed his absence became bigger and his reliability of coming up to visit dwindled. Even when he was up here his presence was almost none existent, we'd hang, but he was always texting someone from the cities or talking about some game that he played with other friends now. Well things grew and he became busy and his presence disappeared. It became blatantly obvious something was up and he realized sent an explanation of how busy he was why he wasn't always able to come when he said he could and I gave him the understanding he needed, cause as we all know shit happens. He asked how he could make things better with us and he seemed like he really wanted to. And the simplest thing he needed to do was to simply work on his communication and talk to us. Which simply could have been getting on messenger even for just an hour once a week would make a difference. But this simple task apparently has proven to be too hard for him.
He came up for us to meet his new boyfriend and things blew up from there, what he promised to be almost a whole day of hanging with him was turning into an hour at a coffee shop, which than got pushed to nothing, because of some stupid excuse that came up. We had finally had enough and the fight took place. We explained what we were upset with, and he still didn't seem to understand. He has yet to talk to us after that and that fact right there proves how much he has changed, if this happened even 6 months ago, he would have showed up at our friends house where we were hanging out to talk to us and explain what was wrong or at least have texted us or called us to talk about it by now. You never realize how much a person can change until they do and the sad part is I am not even that upset at loosing him, a part of me is still hoping he will show up and talk about it, and another part realizes that the person that was my friend disappeared a while ago and it is only the vessel that held that person that I am loosing.
This happened about a week ago and has been followed by my bank account dwindling from 150 bucks to 15 due to one book I needed for school and my laptop battery has officially died which means i need to spend 150 bucks to replace it. The only silver lining currently is the fact that everything else is going good, this fight has brought the rest of us closer, i get to get a better battery, and i appreciate it that this happens all at once, instead of being dragged out for months on end.
So this is what has happened in my life most recently, there really is not a whole lot left to say, so Guten Tag and I'll post whenever.
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